TABLE OF CONTENTS
Fineprint:
Voice recordings by PhilPhilms
with his permission via Facebook from April 13, 2019.
Original text from Philip Evan Cowlishaw:
“I do not own the rights to this book.
This is for educational purposes only.
Thanks for this beautiful music.”
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there is nothing wrong with your world
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it is your thinking yourself to be
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separate from it that creates disorder
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the moment you allow your imagination to
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spin it at once spins out a universe
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there is only imagination the
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intelligence and power are all used up
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in your imagination it has absorbed you
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so completely that you just cannot grasp
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how far from reality you have wandered
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no doubt imagination is richly creative
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universe within the universe are built
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on it yet they are all in space and time
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past and future which just do not exist
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[Music]
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if you are in the right state whatever
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you see will put you into Samadhi after
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all samadhi is nothing unusual when the
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mind is intensely interested it becomes
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one with the object of interest the seer
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and the seen become one in seeing the
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hear and the herd become one in hearing
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the lover and the loved become one in
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loving every experience can be the
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ground for samadhi are you always in a
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state of Samadhi of course not
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Samadhi is a state of mind after all I
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am beyond all experience even of Samadhi
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I am the great devourer and destroyer
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whatever I touch dissolves into void
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I need samajis for self-realization you
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have all the Self Realization you need
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but you do not trust it have courage
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trust yourself go talk act give it a
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chance to prove itself with some
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realization comes imperceptibly but
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somehow they need convincing
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they have changed but they do not notice
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it
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such non spectacular eases are often the
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most reliable can one believe himself to
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be realized and be mistaken of course
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the very idea I am self realized is a
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mistake there is no I am this I am that
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in the natural state
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if you are earnest you will find that in
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the end you will get fed up with roaming
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and regret the waste of energy and time
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to find yourself you need not take a
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single step do not rush into activity
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neither learning nor action can really
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help it is not what you do but what you
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stop doing that matters do nothing just
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be in being all happens naturally the
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present I am is as false as the I was
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and I shall be it is merely an idea in
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the mind an impression left by memory
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and the separate identity it creates is
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false this habit of referring to a false
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center must be done away with the notion
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I see I feel I think I do must disappear
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from the field of consciousness what
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remains when the false is no more is
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real
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[Music]
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you need not chase the I am to kill it
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you cannot all you need is a sincere
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longing for reality we call it Atma
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bhakti the love of the supreme or moksha
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sankalpa the determination to be free
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from the false without love and will
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inspired by love nothing can be done
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merely talking about reality without
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doing anything about it is
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self-defeating there must be love in the
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relation between the person who says I
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am and the observer of that I am
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as long as the observer the inner self
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the higher self considers himself apart
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from the observed the lower self
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despises it and condemns it the
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situation is hopeless it is only when
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the observer accepts the person as a
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projection or manifestation of himself
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and takes the self into the self so to
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say the duality of I and this goes and
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in the identity of the outer and the
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inner the supreme reality manifests
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itself
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affectionate awareness is the crucial
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factor that brings reality into focus
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[Music]
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how can there be two selves in one body
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the I M is one there is no higher I am
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and lower I am all kinds of states of
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mind presented to awareness and there is
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self identification with them
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[Music]
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one may be conscious for every being is
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conscious but one is not aware what is
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included in awareness becomes the inner
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and partakes of the inner you may put it
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differently the body defines the outer
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self consciousness the inner and in pure
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awareness the supreme is contacted
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there is no I apart from the body nor
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the world the three appear and disappear
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together at the root is the sense I am
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go beyond it the idea I am NOT body is
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merely an antidote to the idea I am the
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body which is false what is that I am
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unless you know yourself what else can
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you know
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find out the I am common to both and go
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beyond go beyond your concepts and ideas
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in the silence free of desire and
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thought the truth is found again
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earnestness is the golden key
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[Music]
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the void speaks the void remains reality
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is one for both of us but for you it is
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a prison and for me it is a home in the
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supreme the witness appears the witness
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creates the person and thinks itself as
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separate from it the witness sees that
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the person appears in consciousness
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which again appears in the witness this
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realization of the basic unit is the
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working of the Supreme it is the power
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behind the witness the source from which
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all flows it cannot be contacted unless
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there is unity and love and mutual help
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between the person and the witness
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unless the doing is in harmony with the
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being and the knowing the supreme is
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both the source and the fruit of such
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harmony as I talk to you I am in the
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state of detached but affectionate
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awareness tortilla
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when this awareness turns upon itself
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you may call it the supreme state but
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the fundamental reality is beyond
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awareness beyond the three states of
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becoming being and not being
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[Music]
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it is your childishness you are
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returning to you are not fully grown up
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there are levels left undeveloped
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because unattended just give full
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attention to what in you is crude and
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primitive unreasonable and unkind
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altogether childish and you will ripen
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it is the maturity of heart and mind
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that is essential
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it comes effortlessly when the main
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obstacle is removed inattention
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unawareness in awareness you grow
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[Music]
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there is only life there is nobody who
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lives a life life itself is desireless
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but the false self wants to continue
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pleasantly therefore it is always
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engaged in ensuring ones continuity life
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is unafraid and free as long as you have
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the idea of influencing events
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liberation is not for you the very
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notion of do ership of being a cause is
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a bondage
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[Music]
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contemplate life as infinite undivided
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ever-present ever active until you
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realize yourself as one with it it is
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not even very difficult for you will be
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returning only to your own natural
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condition once you realize that all
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comes from within that the world in
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which you live has not been projected
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onto you but by you your fear comes to
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an end without this realization you
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identify yourself with the externals
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like the body-mind society nation and
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humanity even God or the absolute but
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these are all escapes from fear it is
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only when you fully accept your
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responsibility for the little world in
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which you live and watch the process of
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its creation preservation and
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destruction that you may be free from
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your imaginary bondage
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why should I imagine myself so wretched
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you do it by habit only change your ways
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of feeling and thinking take stock of
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them and examine them closely you are in
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bondage by inadvertence attention
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liberates you are taking so many things
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for granted again to question the most
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obvious things are the most doubtful ask
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yourself such questions as was I really
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born am I really so and so how do I know
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that I exist
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who are my parents have they created me
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or have I created them must I believe
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all I am told about myself Who am I
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anyhow
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you have put so much energy into
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building a prison for yourself now spend
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as much on demolishing it in fact
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demolition is easy for the false
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dissolves when it is discovered all
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hangs on the idea
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I am examine it very thoroughly it lies
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at the root of every trouble it is a
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sort of skin that separates you from the
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reality the real is both within and
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without the skin but the skin itself is
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not real this I am idea was not born
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with you you could have lived very well
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without it it came later due to your
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self identification with the body it
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created an illusion of separation where
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there was none it made you a stranger in
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your own world and made the world alien
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and inimical
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without the sense of I am life goes on
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there are moments when we are without
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the sense of I am that peace and happy
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with the return of the I am trouble
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starts
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[Music]
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you must deal with the I sense if you
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want to be free of it watch it in
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operation and at peace how it starts and
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when it ceases what it wants and how it
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gets it till you see clearly and
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understand fully after all all the
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yoga’s whatever their source and
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character have only one aim to save you
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from the calamity of separate existence
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of being a meaningless dot in a vast and
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beautiful picture you suffer because you
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have alienated yourself from reality and
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now you seek an escape from this
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alienation you cannot escape from your
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own obsessions you can only see nursing
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them it is because the i.m is false that
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it wants to continue reality need not
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continue knowing itself indestructible
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it is indifferent to the destruction of
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forms and expressions
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to strengthen and stabilize the I am we
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do all sorts of things all in vain for
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the I am is being rebuilt from moment to
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moment it is unceasing work and the only
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radical solution is to dissolve the
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separative sense of I am such and such a
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person once and for good being remains
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but not self being
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[Music]
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no ambition is spiritual all ambitions
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are for the sake of the I am if you want
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to make real progress you must give up
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all idea of personal attainment the
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ambitions of the so-called Yogi’s are
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preposterous a man’s desire for a woman
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is innocence itself compared to the
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lusting for an everlasting personal
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bliss the mind is a cheat the more pious
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it seems the worse the betrayal
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[Music]
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if your awareness is clear and full a
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mistake is less probable
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[Music]
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go beyond the I am the body idea and you
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will find that space and time are in you
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and not you in space and time once you
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have understood this the main obstacle
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to realization is removed to know that
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you are neither in the body nor in the
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mind though aware of both is already
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self-knowledge all effort leads to more
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effort whatever was built up must be
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maintained
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whatever was acquired must be protected
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against decay or loss whatever can be
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lost is not really one’s own and what is
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not your own of what use can it be to
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you in my world nothing is pushed about
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all happens by itself
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[Music]
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all experiences in space and time
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limited and temporary he who experiences
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existence is also limited and temporary
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I am NOT concerned either with what
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exists or with who exists I take my
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stand beyond where I am both and neither
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[Music]
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just as the shape of a gold ornament
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does not affect the gold sodas man’s
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essence remain unaffected mere knowledge
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is not enough the knower must be known
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without the knowledge of the knower
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there can be no peace how does one come
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to know the knower I can only tell you
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what I know from my own experience when
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I met my guru he told me you are not
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what you take yourself to be find out
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what you are watch the sense I am find
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your real self
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I obeyed him because I trusted him I did
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as he told me all my spare time I would
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spend looking at myself in silence and
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what a difference it made and how soon
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it took me only three years to realize
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my true nature
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my guru died soon after I met him but it
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made no difference I remembered what he
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told me and persevered the fruit of it
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is here with me
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[Music]
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I know myself as I am in reality I am
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neither the body nor the mind nor the
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mental faculties
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I am beyond all these are you just
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nothing come on be reasonable of course
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I am most tangibly only I am NOT what
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you may think me to be this tells you
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all it tells me nothing because it
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cannot be told you must gain your own
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experience you are accustomed to dealing
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with things physical and mental I am NOT
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a thing nor are you we are neither
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matter nor energy neither body nor mind
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[Music]
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once you have a glimpse of your own
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being you will not find me difficult to
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understand we believe in so many things
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on hearsay we believed in distant lands
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and people in heavens and hells in gods
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and goddesses because we were told
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similarly we were told about ourselves
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our parents name position duties and so
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on we never cared to verify the way to
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truth lies through the destruction of
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the false to destroy the false
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you must question your most inveterate
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beliefs of these the idea that you are
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the body is the worst with the body
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comes the world with the world God who
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is supposed to have created the world
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and thus it starts fears religions
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prayers sacrifices all sorts of systems
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all to protect and support the child man
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frightened out of his wits by monsters
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of his own making realize that what you
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are cannot be born nor died and with the
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fear gone all suffering ends what the
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mind invents the mind destroys but the
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real is not invented and cannot be
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destroyed
