TABLE OF CONTENTS
Fineprint:
Voice recordings by PhilPhilms
with his permission via Facebook from April 13, 2019.
Original text from Philip Evan Cowlishaw:
“I do not own the rights to this book.
This is for educational purposes only.
Thanks for this beautiful music.”
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all appearance and disappearance
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presupposes a change against some
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changeless background
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[Music]
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some seed consciousness must be existing
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even during sleep or swoon on waking up
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the experience runs I am the body in the
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world it may appear to arise in
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succession but in fact it is all
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simultaneous a single idea of having a
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body in a world can there be the sense
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of I am without being somebody or other
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[Music]
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don’t you see that all your problems are
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your body’s problems food clothing
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shelter family friends name fame
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security survival all these lose their
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meaning the moment you realize that you
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may not be a mere body
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[Music]
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in a way you are all the bodies hearts
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and minds and much more go deep into the
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sense of I am and you will find it how
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do you find a thing you have mislaid or
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forgotten you keep it in your mind until
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you recall it the sense of being I am is
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the first to emerge ask yourself
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whence it comes or just watch it quietly
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when the mind stays in the I am without
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moving you enter a state which cannot be
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verbalized but which can be experienced
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all you need to do is to try and try
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again
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after all the sense I am is always with
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you only you have attached all kinds of
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things to it body feelings thoughts
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ideas possessions and so on all these
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self identifications are misleading
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because of them you take yourself to be
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what you are not
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[Music]
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what you are cannot be described except
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as total negation all you can say is I
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am not this I am NOT that you are
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nothing perceivable or imaginable yet
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without you there can be neither
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perception nor imagination you observe
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the heart feeling the mind thinking the
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body acting the very act of perceiving
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shows that you are not what you perceive
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can there be perception experience
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without you
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it is the experiencer that imparts
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reality to experience an experience
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which you cannot have of what value is
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it to you
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[Music]
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in every experience there arises the
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experiencer of it memory creates the
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illusion of continuity identity and
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continuity are not the same just as each
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flower has its own color but all colors
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are caused by the same light so do many
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experiencers appear in the undivided and
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indivisible awareness each separate in
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memory identical in essence this essence
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is the root the foundation the timeless
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and spaceless possibility of all
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experience
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[Music]
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you need not get added for you are it it
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will get at you
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if you give it a chance let go of your
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attachment to the Unreal and the real
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will swiftly and smoothly step into its
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own stop imagining yourself being or
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doing this or that and the realization
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that you are the source and heart of all
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will dawn upon you with this realization
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will come great love which is not choice
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or predilection nor attachment but a
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power which makes all things love worthy
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and lovable
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[Music]
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my life is a succession of events just
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like yours only I am detached and see
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the passing show as a passing show while
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you stick to things and move along with
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them
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I trusted my guru he told me I am
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nothing but myself and I believed him
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trusting him I behaved accordingly and
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ceased caring for what was not me nor
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mine things happen without cause and
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reason
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why attach importance to opinions even
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your own
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[Laughter]
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everything is a miracle as to my mind
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there is no such thing there is
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consciousness in which everything
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happens
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[Music]
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your mind is all with things people and
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ideas never with yourself bring yourself
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into focus become aware of your own
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existence see how you function watch the
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motives and the results of your actions
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study the prison you have built around
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yourself by in and your tents by knowing
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what you are not you come to know
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yourself the only way back to yourself
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is through refusal and rejection
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one thing is certain the real is not
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imaginary it is not a product of the
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mind even the sense I am is not
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continuous though it is a useful pointer
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it shows where to seek but not what to
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seek just have a good look at it
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once you are convinced that you cannot
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say truthfully about yourself anything
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except I am and that nothing that can be
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pointed at can be yourself the need for
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the I am is over you are no longer
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intend on verbalizing what you are all
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you need is to get rid of the tendency
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to define yourself all definitions apply
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to your body only and to its expressions
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once this obsession with the body goes
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you will revert to your natural state
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spontaneously and effortlessly
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between the banks of pain and pleasure
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the River of Life flows it is only when
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the mind refuses to flow with life and
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get stuck at the banks that it becomes a
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problem by flowing with life
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I mean acceptance letting come what
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comes and go what goes desire not fear
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not observe the actual as and when it
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happens for you are not what happens you
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are to whom it happens ultimately even
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the observer you are not you are the
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ultimate potentiality of which the
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all-embracing consciousness is the
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manifestation and expression
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there is something exceptional unique
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about the present event which the
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previous or the coming do not have there
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is a living ‘no cebu in actuality it
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stands out as if illumined there is the
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stamp of reality on the actual which the
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past and future do not have
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I am real for I am always now in the
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present and what is with me now shares
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in my reality the past is in memory the
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future in imagination
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[Music]
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it is my own reality that I impart to
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the present event we consider memories
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only when they come into the present The
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Forgotten is not counted until one is
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reminded which implies bringing the past
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into the now
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[Music]
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desire is the memory of pleasure and
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fear is the memory of pain both make the
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mind restless moments of pleasure are
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merely gaps in the stream of pain how
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can the mind be happy the universe is
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complete and where there is completeness
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where nothing lacks what can give pain
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the mind by its very nature divides and
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opposes
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[Music]
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but there is another mind in going
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beyond the limiting dividing and
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opposing mind in ending the mental
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process as we know it when this comes to
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an end that mind is born joy and sorrow
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exists no longer not as we know them as
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desirable or repugnant it becomes rather
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a question of love seeking expression
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and meeting with obstacles the inclusive
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mind is love in action battling against
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circumstances initially frustrated
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ultimately victorious the mind creates
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the abyss the heart crosses it like
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everything mental the so called law of
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causation contradicts itself no thing in
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existence has a particular cause the
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entire universe contributes to the
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existence of even the smallest thing
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nothing could be as it is without the
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universe being what it is when the
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source and ground of everything is the
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only cause of everything to speak of
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causality as a universal law is wrong
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[Music]
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the universe is not bound by its content
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because its potentialities are infinite
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besides it is a manifestation or
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expression of a principle fundamentally
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and totally free
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there is a lot of activity going on
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because of ignorance would people know
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that nothing can happen unless the
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entire universe makes it happen they
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would but achieve much more with less
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expenditure of energy
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when the past and future are seen in the
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timeless now as parts of a common
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pattern the idea of cause and effect
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loses its validity and creative freedom
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takes its place your own mother was not
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needed to give you birth you could have
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been born from some other woman but you
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could not have been born without the Sun
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and the earth even these could not have
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caused your birth without the most
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important factor your own desire to be
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born
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the real world is beyond the Mayans can
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we see it through the net of our desires
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divided into pleasure and pain right and
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wrong inner and outer to see the
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universe as it is you must step beyond
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the net it is not hard to do so for the
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net is full of holes look at the net and
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its many contradictions you do and undo
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at every step you want peace love
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happiness and work hard to create pain
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hatred and war
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you want longevity and overeat you want
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friendship and exploit see your net as
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made of such contradictions and remove
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them you are very seeing them will make
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them go for everything there are
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innumerable causal factors but the
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source of all that is is the infinite
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possibility the supreme reality which is
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in you and which throws its power and
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light and love on every experience but
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this source is not a cause and no cause
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is a source because of that I say
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everything is uncaused you may try to
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trace how a thing happens but you cannot
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find out why a thing is as it is a thing
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is as it is because the universe is as
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it is
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is the witness consciousness permanent
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or not it is not permanent the knower
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rises and sets with the known that in
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which both the knower and the known
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arise and set is beyond time the words
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permanent or eternal do not apply the
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absence of experience to is experience
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it is like entering a dark room and
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saying I see nothing
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[Music]
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just as the knower of the body appears
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at birth so he disappears at death and
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nothing remains life remains
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consciousness needs a vehicle and an
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instrument for its manifestation when
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life produces another body another
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knower comes into being
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[Music]
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is there a causal link between the
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successive body knowers or body Minds
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yes there is something that may be
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called the memory body or causal body a
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record of all that was thought wanted
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and done it is like a cloud of images
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held together
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what is this sense of a separate
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existence it is a reflection in a
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separate body of the one reality in this
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reflection the unlimited and the limited
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are confused and taken to be the same to
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undo this confusion is the purpose of
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yoga does not death undo this confusion
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in death only the body dies life does
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not consciousness does not reality does
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not die and the life is never so alive
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as after death
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but does one get reborn what was born
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must die only the unborn is deathless
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find what is it that never sleeps and
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never wakes and whose pale reflection is
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our sense of I how do you go about
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finding anything by keeping your mind
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and heart on it interest there must have
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been and steady remembrance to remember
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what needs to be remembered is the
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secret of success you come to it through
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earnestness
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[Music]
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be free from contradictions the goal and
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the way must not be on different levels
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life and light must not quarrel behavior
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must not betray belief call it honesty
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integrity wholeness you must not go back
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undo uproot abandon the conquered ground
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tenacity of purpose and honesty and
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pursuit will bring you to your goal
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[Music]
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all will come as you go on take the
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first step all blessings come from
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within turn within I am you know be with
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it all the time you can spare
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until you revert to it spontaneously
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there is no simpler and easier way what
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is the purpose of meditation we know the
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outer world of sensations and actions
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but of our inner world of thoughts and
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feelings we know very little the primary
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purpose of meditation is to become
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conscious of and familiar with our inner
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life
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the ultimate purpose is to reach the
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source of life and consciousness
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incidentally practice of meditation
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deeply affects our character we are
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slaves to what we do not know of what we
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know we are masters whatever vice or
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weakness in ourselves we discover and
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understand its causes and its workings
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we overcome it by the very knowing the
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unconscious dissolves when brought into
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the conscious the dissolution of the
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unconscious releases energy the mind
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feels adequate and becomes quiet when
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the mind is quiet we come to know
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ourselves as the pure witness we
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withdraw from the experience and
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experience her and stand apart in pure
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awareness which is between and beyond
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the two the personality based on
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self-identification on imagining oneself
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to be something I am this I am that
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continues but only as a part of the
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objective world its identification with
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the witness snaps
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[Music]
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the satva is pure and strong always it
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is like the Sun it may seem obscured by
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clouds and dust but only from the point
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of view of the perceiver deal with the
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causes of obscuration not with the Sun
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whatever happens I must be there to
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witnesses what begins and ends is mere
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appearance the world can be said to
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appear but not to be the appearance may
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last very long on some scale of time and
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be very short on another but ultimately
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it comes to the same whatever is
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time-bound
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is momentary and has no reality I see
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the world as it is a momentary
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appearance in consciousness
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the supreme state is uncaused
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independent unrelated undivided
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unconscionable unquestionable
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unreachable by effort every positive
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definition is from memory and therefore
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inapplicable and yet my state is
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supremely actual and therefore possible
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realizable attainable
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[Music]
